I feel...

Really down today for various reasons. I can't seem to dig myself up out of this hole. This is probably why I have not blogged all week. I hate this feeling and I wish it would go away. I wish my emotions were a switch that I could turn off. I hate that Im so sensitive, I need to have the I dont give a hoot attitude. I think in time I will. I learned that you can't trust anyone, not even your own family. I guess I was never really a family person so people think it's odd when I say I'm not close to my family. I am only close to my mother and sister thats it. Thats the only people I call family.

Thank god...

It is so beautiful out today. We were all sick of the cold weather, but it has gotten warmer out! I am so excited for the spring. I walked my dog today longer than usual and I usually try and rush him because it has been so shitty out. The only thing that sucks today is I have to stay in because I have tons of homework. I cant enjor this beautiful day:( I also have laundry to wash. Oh my how I wish I didnt have so many damn papers to do. There will be more days like this one though.

Completely Overwhelmed

I am so stressed out! I have so much work to do and so many papers to do. Im sitting here typing up my investigation, writing commentaries and studying for a test tomorrow. I also have a paper and a story due next week. I am not sure what to write! This is by far the most stressful year of my college career. Work is piling up after the minute and I cannot wait til it slows down a bit. one more commentary to go then comes the studying!

Pet peeve

My biggest pet peeve is when people type like they're morons. For example, "ii Am GoiiNG ouT wiiT mUH bEStie." Like dude what the heck is that? I can understand that people like to abbreviate things, but thats adding more letters to the damn word! It's also capitalizing letters that do not need to be capitalized. I also hate when people speak they say "supposably" instead of supposedly. Freaking morons I wish I could back slap all of them.

Carver's Stories.

The stories "Beginners" and "What We Talk About When We Talk About Love" are essentially the same stories. "Beginners" is just longer and more detailed. I actually enjoyed reading "Beginners" the best. Carver put more detail into the story. In "Beginners" he actually told us the time in which the conversation took place. It was a Saturday afternoon. He does not let us know that in his other version. In "Beginners" he also describes Terri more in depth saying she suffered from anorexia and had been a drop out. I think that leaving that part out of his other version didnt allow us to really know her and what she had been through. Maybe this is why she loved someone who was so abusive to her. I think that Herb and Mel were pretty much the same in both stories. He was verbally abusive and stuck to his belief about Terri's ex-husband.

I spit on your grave

I saw this movie on Saturday with my bestfriend. All I have to say is that it was super disturbing. It was about a young girl who rents out a cabin for a weekend alone. She wants quiet time because she is a writer. She goes to a gas station and meets these men who work there and some how they find out where she lives. They go to her house at night and take turns raping her. The grueling thing about this movie is that they showed everything and the rape and abuse went on for a good portion of the movie. I was so disgusted and I felt so bad. The thing I did like is that she gets her revenge. She takes each man one by one and tortures them, finally killing them. Overall it was a pretty good movie. Not recommended for the faint of heart

Philly traffic

Oh my where do I even begin. So today I had a meeting at work at one. I got out of class early just so I could be punctual. I work downtown so I needed some time to get there. So everything is going smoothly and I get on the 95 at 12 pm exact. Traffic also seemed to be going smoothly. I got around the exit for Bridge and Harbison and there was this huge traffic jam! I'm thinking okay I'm sure once people get off their exits everything would start to move again, but NO! I was stuck in traffic moving slower and slower for a whole hour. My exit was for Callowhill. This was the worst traffic jam I had ever been in. I was super freaking frustrated. I didn't know why were weren't moving because there wasn't an accident or anything. I must have cursed a million times in my car and beat up my steering wheel a few times. I'm very very impatient. Then some asshole truck driver completely cut me off. It wasn't like he was driving a small peanut truck it was huge! I wish he would have hit me so I could sue. He was a complete moron! That's one person I would like to kick in the face. I got to my meeting 40 minutes late! So this is why I hate leaving in this crummy city and I hope to move when I'm finished with school.