Last week...

Of school. I am so excited, yet extremely stressed out this week. I have so much to do I don't even know where to begin. Good thing I only have two finals on Monday. My other three were take home exams. Super easy. I cannot wait until this week is over. I am ready for a long break. Then I'll be complaining like two weeks later that I have too much damn time on my hands. Ahhh I just need a nap !

My Grandmother...

is an interesting person. I am actually at her store now typing this blog up. My grandmother actually owns a spiritual supply store. It's called a botanica in spanish. She is a tarot card reader and has been since before I was born. So she pretty much has many clients. I don't believe in what she does, but hey it helps us live comfortably. I actually think its pretty creepy. She has tons of saints in her store and some of the saints are painted black! She also sells these baths for every spiritual cleansing you could imagine. Some women come in and ask her they need a candle or a bath so they could keep their men in line. They have serious issues. Some people come in shaking all over the place claiming they have the holy spirit. Holy spirit my ass! I cant believe I'm even here now.

What my weekend will consist of.

This is not the most interesting post, but for the sake of getting enough posts in I am going to write about my weekend. It will be boring because I am always working! I never get a damn break. Tomorrow I will be going with my mother shopping for her dress. My brother is getting married May 14th to a woman I barely know. Great this should be fun. I am then going out to dinner with my father, his girlfriend, and my boyfriend. They will finally meet for the first time. Boy am I nervous! It should be fine since we'll be at an Italian restaurant called Illcantuccio and its BYOB! I'll just slip my dad a few glasses of Pinot Grigio and he should be fine! Saturday and Sunday are boring because I work from 4pm to 12am. Not fun! I should really start looking for a new job.

Jersey Shore

I think this has got to be the worst show ever! I can't believe they would even air this piece of shit. I could make a show and hopefully it would be a hit. I think it's all fake. There is no way in hell that people really act like that. I mean like how much drama could you possibly have!? Now i Hera they are airing their next season in Italy and the Italians are not happy about that. I don't blame them. Not all Italians act this way!

My weekend...

was so hectic! I worked Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I was swamped at work. There were these cheerleaders staying at the hotel the entire weekend. I'd say they were in middle school. Friday night there was a pizza party for the parents and their daughters. There were probably about 50 parents and they all wanted to come a crowed the bar at the same time. I was the only bartender and boy was a stressed! They were pretty patient thought being that I was alone. I then had this bitch lady sit at the bar and she wanted to eat. The Bitch complained about everything! She complained that there wasnt enough parmesean cheese on her caesar salad. She then kept asking for shit she didnt need. She then wanted to order a veggie burger and then complained because it didnt come with sweet potato fries. Bitch you never specified what fries you wanted. She then wanted me to take it back and put her damn burger on a separate plate. She took a bite and said it was not cooked. I wanted to KILL her. She asked for her bill then said she didn't feel like she had to pay for it. Im like what the fuck do you want from me lady. She shouldn't have to pay for the burger because she didn't eat it, but she should of had to pay for her salad and wine. The Bitch didn't complain about her wine tasting funny or anything. My dumb ass manager comped her entire bill. That is one person I would love to see outside of work ;)

Something for me.

Eyes as bold as the whisper of a four letter word peer into my core and take me for what I am.

I am so undeserving of such a beautiful stranger, yet welcome the opportunity.

I see life in your gaze, live and die between each and every blink.

Such a sweet death you give me, I surrender to your impunity.

Where is gravity, is it that I have found myself crashing into you?

Can skin be so soft, so as to ensure my safety?

I caress your pedals in search of thorns, but draw no blood.

I reflect on the pain, you are not the same; I’ve torn much flesh lately.

Here I am, but still no affirmation as to who you are.

The complexities of your presence often crowd my brain.

Am I still plummeting to earth or have I reached my destination?

I am so impatient; I contemplate if you feel the same.

 

So alone

You know sometimes you can't always count on family to be there. Personally I think they are all pieces of shit! I really would like to move away from all of them except for my mother and little sister. They are the only true family members that I have. Everyone else can choke on a BIG one. Pardon my French. I'd like to move away to a warm place and never speak to any of them again. I am completely fed up with everything and I am super close to exploading. You can't count on my family for anything! I don't know how the hell I was ever born into this nutty family. Now I shall stop complaining and go bitch slap them all :)

Almost over.

I can't wait until this semester is over. I'm starting to get lazy and I don't like this feeling. I'm pretty much getting things done half assed just to get the grade. I need to get my shit together. I'm doing well but I don't want any C's. I am so excited for the summer. So we are almost done.

Working with people

I am a bartender and a server at the Hilton Garden Inn. I am constantly working with people and while I love my job working with people is TOUGH! I just don't understand why people would be so rude and mean to me when I'm the one handling their food ;) I'm not saying that I would ever do such a thing, but they don't know that. I had one gentleman tell me that it wasn't his problem that I couldn't get his food to him on time because there was only one cook. I said well It isn't my problem either. He looked at me stunned like I just said his mother died or something. I have zero patience for rude customers. You treat others how you would like to be treated. They say the customer is always right. Bull shit not when I'm working.

Psych Test

I am so nervous! I studied my butt off, but this test is super hard! I hope I get a good grade because this is my major. I also have so much shit to do. This semester is like never ending homework. I can always expect to have something to do every night. I even do my homework behind the bar when I'm working. I better pass with an A or a B on everything this semester or I'll feel like this was totally all a waste!

hot or cold?

When will it get warmer out? I want to wear flip flops and short sleeved shirts. this weather has me so annoyed. Its warm one day and then freezing the next. Its soon to be April and it's still 45 degrees out. What the heck is wrong with that?

Zumba

I love this game for the Wii. It's such a great work out! i think everyone should try it. I dont even have to get up and leave my house. I have so much fun doing it and it actually makes me burn up a sweat. It's kind of like salsa and some belly dancing. I'm going to play now so much fun!

Double

Today is a Saturday and I am up early. I can't believe I have to work a double today. I am super exhausted and I have to be at work at noon until 4 AM. My idiot manager needs us there to help set up the restaurant for the party tonight. I have no idea how I'm going to feel about bartending past 1 AM. I'll need extra coffee today. Wish me luck!

First day back...

Was completely dreadful! I am totally not used to waking up early. I miss my days sleeping in! The change of time also screwed me up completely. I am in my Psych Methods class and I needed to blog to keep me from falling asleep. All this information seems so useless to me now. I have tons of work piling up and I need to get to it. I feel so lazy I wish I could just get motivated. Seven weeks left of classes I need to get on a ROLL!

Spring break

My spring break was pretty uneventful in the beginning. Towards the end is when the fun came into play. It was my birthday on the 9th So my dad took my best friend and I to a restaurant downtown called mixto. It was so good and their mojitos were to die for! I also went out to a lounge on Friday. It was tons of fun that I got drunk. I was not happy about that part because it was super embarrassing. I rarely drink so I guess it did not take much to get me there. I threw up in McDonalds drive thru ! People were laughing at me I can't believe I did that. Never again I need to lay off the grey goose for a while.

Summer Time

The weather is getting nicer! I can't wait til the summer gets here. I already started going spring/summer shopping. This weather puts me in a good mood. I just want to go out and I don't feel like being in class right about now. I hope the weather is like this for my birthday next week! I'm so lucky we're on spring break.

I feel...

Really down today for various reasons. I can't seem to dig myself up out of this hole. This is probably why I have not blogged all week. I hate this feeling and I wish it would go away. I wish my emotions were a switch that I could turn off. I hate that Im so sensitive, I need to have the I dont give a hoot attitude. I think in time I will. I learned that you can't trust anyone, not even your own family. I guess I was never really a family person so people think it's odd when I say I'm not close to my family. I am only close to my mother and sister thats it. Thats the only people I call family.

Thank god...

It is so beautiful out today. We were all sick of the cold weather, but it has gotten warmer out! I am so excited for the spring. I walked my dog today longer than usual and I usually try and rush him because it has been so shitty out. The only thing that sucks today is I have to stay in because I have tons of homework. I cant enjor this beautiful day:( I also have laundry to wash. Oh my how I wish I didnt have so many damn papers to do. There will be more days like this one though.

Completely Overwhelmed

I am so stressed out! I have so much work to do and so many papers to do. Im sitting here typing up my investigation, writing commentaries and studying for a test tomorrow. I also have a paper and a story due next week. I am not sure what to write! This is by far the most stressful year of my college career. Work is piling up after the minute and I cannot wait til it slows down a bit. one more commentary to go then comes the studying!

Pet peeve

My biggest pet peeve is when people type like they're morons. For example, "ii Am GoiiNG ouT wiiT mUH bEStie." Like dude what the heck is that? I can understand that people like to abbreviate things, but thats adding more letters to the damn word! It's also capitalizing letters that do not need to be capitalized. I also hate when people speak they say "supposably" instead of supposedly. Freaking morons I wish I could back slap all of them.

Carver's Stories.

The stories "Beginners" and "What We Talk About When We Talk About Love" are essentially the same stories. "Beginners" is just longer and more detailed. I actually enjoyed reading "Beginners" the best. Carver put more detail into the story. In "Beginners" he actually told us the time in which the conversation took place. It was a Saturday afternoon. He does not let us know that in his other version. In "Beginners" he also describes Terri more in depth saying she suffered from anorexia and had been a drop out. I think that leaving that part out of his other version didnt allow us to really know her and what she had been through. Maybe this is why she loved someone who was so abusive to her. I think that Herb and Mel were pretty much the same in both stories. He was verbally abusive and stuck to his belief about Terri's ex-husband.

I spit on your grave

I saw this movie on Saturday with my bestfriend. All I have to say is that it was super disturbing. It was about a young girl who rents out a cabin for a weekend alone. She wants quiet time because she is a writer. She goes to a gas station and meets these men who work there and some how they find out where she lives. They go to her house at night and take turns raping her. The grueling thing about this movie is that they showed everything and the rape and abuse went on for a good portion of the movie. I was so disgusted and I felt so bad. The thing I did like is that she gets her revenge. She takes each man one by one and tortures them, finally killing them. Overall it was a pretty good movie. Not recommended for the faint of heart

Philly traffic

Oh my where do I even begin. So today I had a meeting at work at one. I got out of class early just so I could be punctual. I work downtown so I needed some time to get there. So everything is going smoothly and I get on the 95 at 12 pm exact. Traffic also seemed to be going smoothly. I got around the exit for Bridge and Harbison and there was this huge traffic jam! I'm thinking okay I'm sure once people get off their exits everything would start to move again, but NO! I was stuck in traffic moving slower and slower for a whole hour. My exit was for Callowhill. This was the worst traffic jam I had ever been in. I was super freaking frustrated. I didn't know why were weren't moving because there wasn't an accident or anything. I must have cursed a million times in my car and beat up my steering wheel a few times. I'm very very impatient. Then some asshole truck driver completely cut me off. It wasn't like he was driving a small peanut truck it was huge! I wish he would have hit me so I could sue. He was a complete moron! That's one person I would like to kick in the face. I got to my meeting 40 minutes late! So this is why I hate leaving in this crummy city and I hope to move when I'm finished with school.

Justin Bieber and Miley Cyrus

I cannot stand these young pop stars! These young girls idolize them and it is so annoying. Who is this Justin Bieber? Hearing his voice just makes me cringe! This so called disney star Miley Cyrus is a little slut who likes to dance on poles. She'll be in rehab like Lindsey Lohan in a year or two. These two are setting bad examples for children in our society. I would never let my child watch their Tv shows or listen to their crappy music. Im sure these two don't attend school or even get the chance to just be kids. Why do parents let their children get sucked into their crap. I sure wouldn't. I can't wait for their careers to be history!

snow sucks !

Is anyone getting sick and tired of this snow like I am? I am getting absolutely aggravated and there is supposed to be more snow! Florida isn't looking too bad right about now. Why can't we just get one huge blizzard and that's it ! I feel like I have done absolutely nothing in school. It keeps getting canceled! I'm sick and tired of shoveling out my car. I hate when it gets stuck and my car has gotten so much damage from this sucky ass weather. I'm hoping this is the last storm because I am so over it!

Best friend

My best friend is pretty much an all around great person. He is my diary and my shoulder to cry on. He helps me feel better when the world feels like it is crashing down on me. I am incredibly lucky to have him. I'd be nothing without my bestfriend. He's about 5'11, atheletic, hazel eyes, and brown hair. My best friend is probably one of the funniest people I know. When I'm super pissed at him he always will do something to make me crack a smile. I hate it! He can also annoy me by asking me too many questions or scaring my guy friends off. That's because he's my daddy!  He also speaks his mind. Yes about everything ! That can sometimes be a bad thing. Daddy's also a bit OCD he needs everything in order or his life is a disaster. It's so annoying! God forbid I don't squeeze the tooth paste tube from the bottom. He also likes to bitch at the little things when he's pissed off, but there are more good things than bad. He has a great heart. He'd do pretty much anything for me. I can always count on him. He's my best friend because thats the only person I can really trust. And I'd like to keep it like that!

Gendered lives

I just finish reading chapter 5 of the book Gendered Lives. I am currently reading it for my CAS455 class. I was really pushing it off because I did not want to read it. The first chapter I read for the class was long, boring, and pretty much put me to SLEEP! To my surprise I actually enjoyed reading this chapter. You know how people are always stereotyping women and saying they talk too much? Well actually men talk a lot more and they're conversations last longer. See we're not the only chatter boxes gentlemen. I also read that men tend to use language that is more assertive and when he does he's basically the man. When a women is assertive she is seen as bitchy or rude. Why is that? I think women should be able to stand their ground. The same goes for men that sleep around. Why aren't they labeled as sluts? This whole gender thing is unfair, but the way life is. I hope one day we can live in a society where men and women are completely EQUAL. A day when firemen, policemen,chairmen,and mankind are no longer primarily terms used for men. One day...hopefully.

Teen Mom disturbing?

Ok so I heard on the radio the other day that Kim Kardashian tweeted saying that the MTV show Teen Mom is disturbing. She also was insinuating that the 90 teens that got pregnant in Memphis were pregnant because of the show Teen Mom. Anything wrong with this picture? Of course what the hell did she even think before she posted this? Kim I think everyone can agree that your sex tape was disturbing. Yes you with your tatas and cooch all out. I'm sure your sorry ass released it. That's how you became famous! Kim has no real talent. How is she even a star? I have to agree she has an amazing butt, but sheesh ! Girls think you have to have a great body to be famous like her. I think that she has to stop slutting around and stop messing with the entire NFL. That's just my opinion though. We'll all pray for you Kim.

New toned body for the new year

So I've pretty much been on this kick about eating right and exercising. No more fast food for me ! and I'm okay with that. It's time to get healthy and live right. Yeah every now and then I'll have a slice (or two) of pepperoni pizza and a pint of chunky monkey ice cream. I joined LAfitness. Yay for me! So for the past two week I've been working out and I have to say I am proud of myself. I haven't been lazy to go and I've been working out for more than 15 minutes ( more like an hour). My main goal is to get toned. I dont want flabby arms or jiggly legs anymore. So I'm working at it. I dont want to lose weight either. I don't want to look starved. I'm hoping I can actually stick to it. Actually I'm heading into the gym at this very moment. Adios !

Worst day ever

So I woke up in the wee hours the morning only to find out that school is delayed two hours. I went back to bed and woke up a couple hours later. I was completely confused with the two hour delay policy online. I had English 50 at 9:30 to 10:45. So did that mean that I had to come in at 10? I had no freaking clue. So I decided to ask a few friends and come to find at none of those idiots had a clue either. They were just as confused as I was. I decided to go anyway. My bad morning started off by getting burnt on my forehead with my damn cheetah print flat iron. Then while getting into my car I sit on the chipped ice that was on my seat. Turns out my dad kept my window open while cleaning off my car. So I had a wet spot on my pants that looked like I pissed a marathon. As I'm driving to school some damn school bus gets into my lane and my car starts slipping and sliding. Thank god I regained control. I then cut a car off and the guy flipped me the bird. Guess his day was as bad as mine. I parked in Sutherland and got completely drenched on my way into the building. I went to my English 50 class and there was one other person sitting down. I waited a while then left. We were the only weirdos who thought we would have class. I then check my email and my 11:00 am class was canceled. So I came to school for absolutely nothing. I could have been at home sleeping, but instead I'm in the computer lab doing this blog. Ahhhh what a day.